"Suicide," A Poetry Post

Mr. or Ms.,

This is a word from a woman who has been
kissed by the same macabre lips that
whisper wistful tidbits into your wits.

The voice would have you believe that if you
ended it then
surely
you'd be missed.

He's spun you the idea that eyes would
run blood, tears and sweat with cries should
you just die.

Perhaps the scene is
dark, serene and
covered in a screen of
heavy rain.

Maybe you see the
dark umbrellas
touching in their agreement of your
worthiness.

I guess it seems best...
ending it all at the wicked voice's behest.

But may I suggest that you are already worth the tears that
mourners might invest?

If you leave me,
I'll never pass you by on a crowded street and
you will never
smile at me.

Even your forced smile could
save me from the
wiles of our whispering friend.

But if you leave me,
he will have claimed your life and
also mine,
and we will both pine in infinity,
wondering why we could not see our
awesome equities.

If you leave me,
I will not have the chance to tell you
how much I appreciate you
finding my wallet when I
dropped it full of
hundred dollar bills intended to
pay my rent.

Since you're that type of person,
if you leave me,
some miscreant will
find my bills and
see them spent,
leaving me and my husband and
son in a pinch.

If you leave me,
I'll never get the chance to tell you how much I
like the way greet me when I
walk into your store.

When other persons busy themselves with the
click and hiss of their registers or the
swish of their packing bags,
you are always waving and wishing me well.

I cannot tell you how much I'd really miss your
appreciativeness if you leave me.

If you leave me,
I will never meet the discrete but
excellent creature that inhabits the
impressed piece of earth beneath your feet.

How will I ever live here if you leave me...
If you leave me to pass an empty bench where you would sit;
If you leave me to sit alone in my row at the indie movie in the theatre;
If you leave me to sort through my marital issues without you
and your experiences;
If you leave me to suffer great loses without your
tales of survival;
If you leave me to breathe while you
and your existential life force dissipate?

How will I escape the worries of this world if you leave me,
when I need you like I do?

We are survivors of the same lies,
me and you.

We both know
that suicide
is not the truth.