"Widows' Wonders," A Young Widow's Post

A widow wonders.

Did I work too much?
Did I worry too much?
Did I wander too much?

Did I love too little?
Did I smile too little?
Did I touch too little?

Did I have too many kids?
Did I have too few kids?
Did we really agree about kids?

Did I call too many times?
Did I call too few times?
Did we use our call time wisely?

Did I dance when I should have?
Did I cry when I should have?
Did I support when I should have?

Did I miss something?
Did I mistake something?
Did I resolve our misunderstandings?

Would he be pleased?
Would he be happy?
Would he be angry?

What would he do?
What would he say?
What would he think?

Should we have done that, or
Should we have changed this, or
Should we have planned this?

What if we had done it
differently?

What would be different
now?

What would be different
now?

What would be different
now?

-T. D. James-Moss